It's Okay Now

It snowed today in Dallas.  The big flakes made their entrance this morning, covered the ground, then melted. Watching those flakes fall down and begin to cover the wet ground was an exciting moment, but I couldn’t help but think of how quickly I knew it was going to melt… In fact, it almost ruined the moment for me.  Knowing what “could be” almost took away from the beauty that “was”… The flakes were beautiful. They were huge. With the backdrop of the fall leaves falling at the same time, it was an early morning scene that couldn’t be topped.  But even in the beauty I found myself annoyed with what it wasn’t.

How often in life I wonder do I do that.  Life is what it is and it’s great and fulfilling and wonderful, yet I find myself annoyed with what it is not… after all, I know what it could be.  Not really the way I want to live. I remember reading a verse years ago (that I can’t find again for the life of me!) that said something to the affect… “like a man turning an arrow on himself, is the one that sits around and thinks of what he deserves.”  In that time of my life, that verse hit me hard. There was so much that I “deserved” at that point in life.  However, the more I focused on all that I deserved, the more I lost all of the priceless moments before me.

This morning, looking out at the large snowflakes against the fall colors, it all came back to me again. The chances of snow sticking in Texas are pretty slim… So, maybe I need to learn to just love the 15 minutes of snow with everything in me.  And in life to love the moment that I’m in with everything I’ve got.

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